Home
So there you are, in your hometown, a young man surrounded by loving family and friends but it's never enough for you, you feel like a shit so you go to the new place to "grow"
Place A
Then, a kid in the new place finds something they've always wanted: freedom.
You meet new people, fall in love, have a few too many and wake up in a stranger's place. Then, eventually, you learn to take responsibility for yourself and realise that this place is just full of scary memories and make you feel like a shit. So, you decide to leaves as soon as you can.
Place A eventually
But you're just a young man who wasted so many years getting wasted. You have a degree that basically says not to trust men. Something happens, and you get a job—not a cool job, but a stupid, tiring one. At this point, though, you'll take anything, again you being You, you feel like you're not really living your best life, and you need a change of scenery to grow so you don't feel like shit. So, you leave at the first chance you get.
Place B
You're a grown man now, with a new job that comes with responsibility and, hopefully, a better life. But you're still in a job you can't stand, and you're always coming back to place A because you said you miss it here. You get to meet new people (again). You feel like you've forced yourself to get comfortable so you don't end up stressed out and feels like shit
Home
Years, you head back home for the worst possible scenario you can imagine. You realize you haven't spent enough time with your family and it make you feels like of course a shit.
Place B
Life is not done with you, You need a job and money, but you promised to go back home ASAP. Then you can head back home, but for some reason, there's always a reason to stay put a bit longer.
Place A
You think this is what you need, going back to the place you grew up with memories, but deep down, you still feel like shit. You realize it's not the place, the friends, family, job, or environment around you. It's you, of course.
Current situation
While eating cheap dimsum you realize that you always hate yourself and run away when things get tough. You hate that you never accomplished anything in your hometown and hope that will make you better, but it doesn't. Things just change, and the reason you aren't home yet is because you can't answer this.
home is supposed to be a safe place, final resting place. But what if you feel like shit? You're afraid it will end up going nowhere. Or worse, what if you no longer have a place or reason to run away when you feel like shit?
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